picture this when you go to kiss

listening to: jer coons legs

ok my new favorite song is the above. jer coons is AMAZING! you all should listen to his music!

this weekend was pleasant overall. i spent some time out on the porch swing writing my novel. i'm having so much fun with it! overall the story is centered around a couple high schoolers, and i'm writing it from alternating perspectives of the two main characters, mika, and justin. i'm trying to keep it realistic and believeable. cuz most books about teenagers arent, and that gets annoying. anywas, i may eventualy post segment of it on here!

i also watched anime over the weekend. one was called my neighbor totoro, and it was ADORABLE! =] it was so cute it had me in tears. it is all about the adventures of these two little sisters, i've never seen a movie capture childlike innocence that well before. so i think you all should watch it. it's right up there with howls moving castle if you ask me!

mY HeART cAnT ResT TiLL thEN

Get to know me a little better:

* i love saying random words and sentences in spanish. because i can... zapatos!

* my favorite breakfast is french toast. i make it every saturday morning. it's best with peanut butter and syrup... yummm, so bomb!

* it's strange but i always point at people or things when i'm shocked or excited. it's a bad habit, beacause pointings rude... i'll have to conquer it. just not today =]

* i love to read. twilights my favorite series, but i have comfort books, which are breaking dawn, and fruits basket.

* when i hear electronica or techno music i immediatly get excited and want to dance. but i try not to.

* someday i'm going to have a yellow jeep. before i wanted a yellow car, but then i saw a yellow jeep, and it was love! oh... but yesterday i found out my friend Ricky has a yellow jeep... and i am eternally jealous.

* i cant screw bottle caps back onto bottles to save my life. it's just a skill i dont posses.

sometimes i think sitting on trains.

so it is officialy summer! YAY! my heart just did a one eighty... uhh... summersault?

i really love the band breathe carolina... a lot. :)
they're electronica/indie/screamo and rather fabulous if i may say so myself.

so the other day, while jacki was in drivers ed, brie, heidi, and i went to find a park in battle ground... we found one. but it didnt have any swings! what kind of park doesnt have a swing set?! it did have a tire swing... but the tire was plastic and not very life like. but oh well!

i'm so sad about the whole jon&kate plus eight thing! like why are they getting a divorce! it's terrible! i think they need to rethink things, they have 8 children to concider. it all just makes me so sadddd. =(

work has been great all week, i'm kind of lacking motivation, but i get everything done and have a good time. i just need more sleep. lol

sarah and david's wedding is sneaking up on us real fast! it's crazy to think of them as a married couple. i'm excited tho! i know they will be good for eacother. but i really want to be an aunt, and they dont plan on making me one right away. =( but i want little kids in my life again all the time! i'm so sad i'm missing VBS! yeah, but no kids for sarah and david right away. i swear if you want something done you've got to do it yourself. NOT that i'm saying i'm gonna go get pregnant! lol NO WAY. but i'll just have to find more time for babysitting and such. =)

it's as if i'm scared - it's as if i'm terrified

i want to understand. from now on, i want you to listen to my grief, my happiness, and my feelings. just as i would listen to yours. all the pain, the fear, the missunderstanding, i want to know about it. so that we can cope with them together. i want us to be together... to eat meals, to study, and to worry together. i want us to be like that... together. we will face everything together.

i want to face all of this with you... lets live through this together.

Love me cancerously, kill me romantically.

Listening to: I’d rather be alone - Amely
I’m reading fruits basket again. Not many people know, but I really love manga. And every time I read fruits basket, I just feel uplifted, like I cant even explain it, but it makes me happy. =) there’s a fruits basket sticker book I saw that I want lol so silly.
I have a new obsession with drawing cartoon people. Lol mostly I draw my friends in a cartoon version of themselves.
You’re awful. I love you.
work today was great, all i did was a little corporate and TONS of book pulls! but i got to have some good convos with coworkers, and gosh, i love you guys so much =) really, it's true.
So there is this commercial that is so sweet it almost made me cry lol - I know it‘s ridiculous. It’s for at&t and so now I really love my network because it has good ads.
Bible study tonight, and today is corporate day for me at work, I get to drive! Goody!
Reasons for joy:
I got a new dress at AE
Family trip to the ape caves soon!
A lot of my friends are entering into relationships and that makes me happy because it’s really lifting their spirits.
Strawberries! They’re growing in our garden!
So there are certain times where people ask me how is it that I’m happy all the time. And in all honesty, it isn’t me so much as my relationship with God that has me so joyful. I just feel complete knowing I have a hope and a future that can’t be taken away from me. You cant take away my faith no matter how hard you try, it’s the only ever consistent thing in anyone’s life. It makes me confident and trusting and very joyful. That’s on the real.
oh, and so u all know... the guy sitting next to me, he looks like a scary guy from LOST, haha.
Peace out home skillets! Love and hugs!

A scientist just couldn’t fix this mess

Listening to: the walls of regret - the boy and his machine
Everyday, I find something to be joyful about. I mean sure life likes to dump on us all, but I just don’t let myself sacrifice all the good stuff happening for the few bad things. So I think I should start writing on each post my reasons to be joyful. Or the event that made my day.
Yesterday, there was two things that just stood out. One was jake and his cut out blue mustaches, I don’t know why but just the whole, “psst Amanda. (raises blue mustache above lips” sent me into giggles. I wont be sEVenTeEN forever. And then, there was dinner with my parents and Heidi. My mom was being so silly! Saying sentences wrong and not even noticing, she said something about a cow having to dodge a peacock on the road! And then Heidi said something ridiculous, that sadly my brain is drawing a blank on at the moment. It was just… cheerful. Reconnecting with old friends. And corbz when he told that receptionist that he wasn’t there to talk to her, but rather, there stalking me. Lol her face was priceless.
Oh and I saw a shirt that said “what’s up home skillet” on it and I felt immediate joy!
I know I sound rather… simple. And I guess I truly am. Its so easy to please me, just show me a bright piece of paper and I’ll smile.
So I saw the new moon trailer. Like six times =] I can’t wait till the movie comes out! It looks intense!
Anyways, that’s all for now.
Peace out home skillets =] h’s and k’s

Boys trick girls into thinking they like them. (Feels like high school)

Listening to: Happy Ending - Mika
I’ve noticed a weird quirk concerning the Harteloo trio of girls… We all share a mutual obsession with trendy sleepwear aka. we have pajama fetishes! But it gets worse. We each have a favorite style of pajamas. For Sarah, it’s the warm cozy ones (Wonder why we call her the ice princess). For Heidi, booty shorts (Cuz she gets to show off her stunner legs!). And for me, I like nightys, short - bright - summery ones! (I also like booty shorts but Re has me beat in that department). Anyways, it’s sort of strange, but overall Sarah has it the worst lol she has had this problem (so to say) of magnetic attraction to cute pjs longer than Heidi or I have had it.
I love college. ;)
Oh I am really liking the color yellow! Perhaps because brie and I are being continuously stalked by some guy in a yellow shirt? lol Or maybe because it’s like sunshine? But I want a yellow car, and this bomb pair of yellow sunglasses! Oh! And I just bought a yellow nighty tehe, and uhh, yeah, some other thing yellow, because I read about it in a book and impulsively mimicked it. Lol but.. Yes. Yellow. Is. Good.

Well today I’m in a golden mood, shall we see if it lasts? Well I guess we must!
Anyways, here’s to all my home skillets!
FYI, I love each of you so much! And I really appreciate all you contribute to the joyousness of my life! Peace out!

dO THiS FoR mE nOW

* The random lonely teddy bear, that we put on the old mans tractor. And he sat on it! Twice! lol

* Ricky teaching me to drive the cart, that was also one of the most embarrassing moments, to be hyperventilating in front of him. Especially now that I know I was freaked over nothing! But he was a bomb teacher, and extremely calm and patient.

* Swing dancing at clark.

* Bakery days!

* listening to Regina Specktor in art class.

* Shopping at the mall with Mitch, Heidi, and Jeff, probably the first guys I’ve shopped with that we’re actually enjoyable throughout the whole mall. Most guys are terrible shopping buddies lol.

* Dancing in the car at stoplights with brie and scaring people - especially that one guy. I think he started crying lol.

* Burgerville days with corbz.

* Jamba days! Oh man those were the best!

* Triebs class with Jameson, JR, Rachel, Katie, and Stevie! I think that was my fave class at clark just cuz our group was so bomb!

* Lunch breaks with Nate, he’s such a big brother!

* Catching squirrels at clark with brie ;). U know those squirrels are weird! They LET you catch them!

* Late nights at nanny’s with Heidi. Lol “it’s a pad! A pad! You threw a freaking PAD on me!!!”
* Youth group, small group is bomb lol J

* English 101, It was such a fun class, because the people in it were so cool!

* Sitting in the fountain area throwing a bottle around with corbz and brie, lol. We needed one more person to complete the realm of… uhh… “togetherness?”

* The foot game!!! The best game ever lol.

* Prom with brie, Katie, and Bryan! I think applebees was the best part tho lol

* Random talks with Jake. Lol “I’m to sexy to sweat!”

* Bowling with Heidi and Marshall, I think it’s awesome how he just doesn’t know what to think about me lol

DaNCing aT DisCO’s. EAtiNg chEesE oN tOAsT.

I’m so glad summer’s almost here. I really need a break from Clark. I mean I’ll still be there working, but it’s different. It’s not Clark itself I need a break from, it’s the classes and the influences I need away from. I don’t like that I’ve become desensitized to certain things. So I think summer will be a good time for refocusing and everything.

So I’m extremely excited for mannings! Only one more year and I can enroll! I cant wait till I’m a licensed cosmetologist!!!! I’m especially looking forward to learning different cuts, like for those emo guys with the bomb fo hawks, or dramatic styles like wedges and such for girls. And I’m excited to get my hands and scissors in certain peoples hair! Lol but here’s the dilemma. So, well, I think life is good. Mostly has ups. But here’s a down concerning this. Very few people are supportive when I say I want to be a cosmetologist. I don’t know why but these are the reactions I get; “you will get you’re AA first right? Incase you decide to get a career.” “Why waste your brain?” “That will earn you a living?” “Seems shallow to me, but at least it’s a form of art I guess.” Seriously, those are the reactions I get. And it does bother me a bit I must admit. =/ Like why is it brainless and shallow? And well, it’s kind of my talent so hearing it’s those things is a bit hurtful. Also, no one every asks why I want to go into cosmetology, do they ever think maybe I have a good reason? So here it is. I’m gonna tell you all right now why I want this to be my career because very few people have cared to know I guess.
A.) it’s something I enjoy and WANT to do.
B.) my main priority is that I want a family, and this job is perfect for that. I can be a stay at home mom, and work from my house to help support them too.
C.) I hope to volunteer at crisis pregnancy center to give the new mommy’s free beauty treatments. So that I can bless them in some small way.
B.) so that I can eventually start my own Christian reach out beauty business, targeted for mothers and their kids. So that they can come get a little special time for themselves. And they can bring the kids, knowing they can go to a child care class and learn about Jesus while mommy gets a break.
So those are my main reason for perusing this career. And I don’t think it’s shallow.

So anyways… New topic. Different songs and bands always remind me of certain people… whether it’s the lyrics bring a person to mind, or there is a special memory to it. Like, cocoamo by the beach boys will forever be sarah‘s. And sexy back - Justin timberlake - well it’s jake’s lol. Wanna know what song you are to me? Just ask! Cuz u probably have one, or a whole band - like Austin has the killers lol.

I know it’s classified as corny, but twilight is my literary crack. Haha especially breaking dawn, I read it twice over one weekend, and have read it tons of times lol. And I love the movie too. And it bothers me when people criticize it and say how dumb it is when they’ve never seen it! I mean, I dislike some things that I haven’t seen, but that’s because they’re horror films or something, and I never like them. But I’m not gonna argue with you on whether they’re good or not. I mean if you like them, then yay you, I wont diss that. So yeah I LOVE twilight, deal with it. (Personally I think most guys hate it just because they know Edward could get more ladies then they could. Some sort of pride thing.)

So today my random thought is the following;
Waiting on love isn’t so easy. But I believe it’s worth it. And for some reason I’ve set myself up for disappointment. Those are the thoughts figure them out if you can, continue living if you can’t.
Wow this is a looong post! Oh well!!
Peace out to my nifty home skillets! Love you all! Even the ones who don’t know I do =P

P.S. Promise me… we’ll be together forever in heaven

i'll make you believe. make you forget.

i've decided brie and i are freaks of nature. most everyone already knew that, but we are troublemakers, not double takers. well... not really. but we have done some pretty epic random things. like putting teddybears on lawnmower seats, wearing wendy cups on our heads, and inhaling "toxic lamp light fumes." nothing harmful, just dumb. lol we are pro's at freaking ppl out in the cars next to us at stoplights. at least we'll never see those ppl again.

so i also decided, i'm going to dye my hair. first dark chocolate brown... almost black. then i'll transition it to red. so...auburn. yesss (like a snake) auburn it will be!

i think i'm addicted to french fries... thats new!

did you know i have a hot pink cellphone!?! it's killer!

i like some things more then others, but brie i always like the best.

"oh my goodness!" i am a freak today, and i look like a frump...ick.

uhh JR just kicked my chair and i ignored him, thats awful.

i'm listening to swan song by brightwood, so pwettty!

i bought new shoes... they're sooo fly!

ok enough of me being a random freak.

i have so much school stuff to do this weekend, i think i might die before i finish it all.

that is fo sho a possibility.

peace out to the lovers of pomegrante jamba juices to the rest of you... go hop toads.