sentimental tunes

oh dear, i just WISH that things were easier, or that deciding was easier...
you realize...that is a crooked pic, it needs to rotate! hehe
i am very very very very very joyful right now, no particular reason except that my heart feels full to bursting!
sometimes i wish i could erase certain memories altogether. but then again, wouldnt it be better to hold them close, eventually over come them, and than keep them always, as precious memories. yes, no memory should be forgotten, they should be treasured.
so, there are two choices, and either one would make me so incredibly delighted that i just dont know. oh, and this is secret. i guess time will tell, either way i am happy, i am just so blessed. if i could, i would that is for certain!
eternal love to you all! xoxoxoxo

GASP

Oh Dear. If You're A Girl, You Should Shave Your Armpits. If You Dont... Ok... But Please Dont Raise Your Hand While Wearing A Tanktop.

Just taking a few short moments...

Christmas is nearly here! i like that.
i have downed 60 oz's of orange juice in the past seven hours. i like that.
i have been sick for five days. i dont like that.
but today, i'm feeling much better. i like that! =]
i have a bowtie from Ricky. i like that.
today i went to work and did web orders all on my own. i like that.
yes, there is a lot to like, =].
peace.

Listening to: Happier by a fine frenzy
Where is my life right now? The fast lane to the future. I am feeling it now, and I am excited, frightened, thrilled. I get to graduate, quiet probably with my AA. I get to attain my license, which means I will be able to work more. Work two job (we all know what job is my favorite). Then, beauty school!
I am attempting to remain optimistic though some people really know how to rain on my parade… like REALLY know how.
So Finals are FINALLY through, which is a good thing cuz I was about ready to lose it.
I am quiet happy with certain things right now, =] I cant tell you what tho, I wouldn’t want to jinx it… and even if it does turn out, I think circumstances still call for it to be a hush hush matter. At least in certain places and with certain company that I would normally include in this… we will see =] or I guess this time, just I will…
I FREAKING LOVE THE SEVENWATERS SERIES by juliet mariller. They are my literary crack, and I wish more people knew just how amazing those books are! But they are thick and intimidating so I cant convince ppl to read them all legit like! I love them tho, the characters are so close to my heart tho they are not real… that’s painful to say…
Next time I take a chance, I’m gonna make sure any result is worth it. At least now I know myself better and what it is I need is clearer to me.
Peace out! Time to dance while the diamonds fall!

Final Days

I am worried with how life is right now. its not how i want it and i just keep thinking "just get through spring quarter and your life will really start," but now i realize that isnt the case... and i realize i'm not who i always wanted to be, and i no longer want to be the person i used to envision, yet i dont want to be the person i am either. on the bright side, i now know the problem and will strive to correct it.
peace.