my trouble spot.

I suffer from some sort of narcotic repetitive emotional syndrome that is incurable.

you step up, i'll step up too.

i cant go back to a certain starbucks. because embarassing things happend there, lol that crazy lady who just asks a thing like that!? lol funny though
yay for jakes yummy treats today!!
"does everyone have a stalker? or are we just super dope people?"
i wish that when i dress frumpy everyone else in the world would too, that why i wouldnt spent the whole day wishing i had taken a little extra care of myself instead of just going with the lazy look. also, i've decided that the only days i can dress like a frump - like i did today - are days i'm around nate. lol he always tells me i look beautiful even tho i look like a slob lol he's just what i need on those frumpy days =]
oh, i got employee of the month :) i feel special :)

i need you to love me.

so heres a little insight of whats been going on in my life lately.
the wedding: it was beautiful, and i am so happy for my sissy and new brother. <3 it was just so... perfect lol, i was thoroughly impressed. there was minor misshaps with the cake and mommy's car being driven onto, but the ceremony was amazing. i know i'm bit bias but it was the most beautiful wedding i've seen. sarah - you looked so gorgeous i am so jealous! you have been an amazing example to me. and david - bro you make a wonderful husband to my sis, you are an answered prayer. =] those two make true love visible, and now i know i cant settle for less when something so beatiful is achieveable.
working: i realize just how much i love my job and my coworkers. even on a day like i had today - feeling tired and unmotivated - i enjoyed myself. i actually like doing things like tagging books and wheeling them away, i dont know... at least i can see what i'm accomplishing in a day. and my coworkers always cheer me up, i love their humor...

Dawn "ricky ignores me just like myk."
Ricky "...we learnd to together."

Jake "it would be weird if i just bit your arm..."

fake flicking boogers and random faces. yeah lol they are like family. and when i'm away from them i miss them like family lol.
friendship: i value uncomparably. and i am blessed with loving friends <3
boys: lol i am close with a lot of boys it seems. i am closest with the ones that are like brothers to me. but i'd never marry a brother so someday i'll have to get close with a best friend who doesnt feel like a soul sibbling to me. oh. and i dont do flings. mk.
Family: i love family. those that i am related to by blood, and those that are the family of the heart and soul. those that God forgot to give me by an aunt or an uncle, but those he gave me through friendship.
random things: i'm learning i can let go of old hurts and not worry so badly about being hurt again. i'm thinking of piercing my navel but i dont know if i should?? i am thinking a little clouser could be nice.

how can you trust that somewhere the suns always shining?

so i never told you all about CREATION!!! It was sooooo mind blowing! I cant believe I have to wait a whole year before going back =[
There’s sooo much to tell about it!!!
*First off… the heat! It was so bad u just felt like crying.
*And the bands! SKILLET ROCKED MY FACE OFF!!! Seriously they were so fabulous I felt like crying, plus they remind me so much of corbz, and 9th and 10th grade at cam. Skillet will forever be mine and corbz, always. And family force five… WOW. AND I FINALLY SAW RELIENT K!!!!!! hollah! And… the kutless concert…uhhh…lol
*The people there were fabulous! Since most were christian it was just this wonderful atmosphere… like a humongous family =] hugs and high fives all around. Literally.
*“HoTsss”
*first night lol awkward shadows on the tent…
*mosh pit… those WACKADO ladies that danced like this bksfgbdfkgbdkjfgkjdhgfkjdfkgj!!!! Hahaha I cant even explain it…
*“Suppp”
*”I remember hearing the thump thump thump of each blue berry”
*“RUN!!!”
*Stalking Jordan from pure energy… I seriously feel bad for him. Lol
*Playing cards with peeps
*5 dollar cokes that don’t have lids. RIDICULOUS!
*bonding with the youth group!!!
*Hahahahaha truth dare or double dare…
*new friends. Meeting ppl in the mosh
*I care (I care) you care (you care) we care (we care) I got your back (I got your back) lol or is it I can?
*bubbles they had to pop… or u would die
*getting sprayed… “no problem!… I LOVE YOU!”
*those fabulous spray bottles!!! Sadly brie and I only had ours for one day lol but they were like the BEST investment ever!
*the whole shorts situation and our solution…lol… roll them up high! Distract the guards.
*icewater!!
*moshing with everyone, we were hyper to an extreme degree
*seeing dustin
*”hey you look kind of cute.”
*they were finnnne ;)
*some moments I will forever remember but wont talk about because it was that awkward lol
that’s creation in a nut shell… I loved it. I want to go back…
but goodness did i ever miss all my work friends! lol i guess i'm ok with being back. =]

please stick around, i'll make you fall in love with me

listening to: help i'm alive by metric
i'm gonna start this with a HOLLAH! and end it with a creamsicle! =]
i'm feeling very joyful! david and sarah are now married! and i got an adorable new skirt from hollister. AND Re and i bought the third season of psych. and snow partol has a new cd. and i've decided to pierce my navel. and jake gave me breathe carolina and young love's cds and they are superb! AND i'm gonna schedule another appointment with diana and take the A line up several notches and go a bit darker on the color. =] not to mention i get to see the first step up movie tonight. so i'm happy. oh yes, and most mportantly, i think maybe i was wrong about something, and being wrong would make my day so very wonderful!