In life I am always just more into it than the other party, thats why i always get duped?

Five things:

[1] So I started working my second job this week and i really love it so far. =] The kids are just killing me with their cutness! Really! And even when they whine and throw tantrams its like... so uncute, but at the same time I want to giggle at how dramatic they are. Nap time is a blessing, when we can get them all to sleep lol i relly love it though, i'm already attached to these Babies, it's ridiculous how fast they can work into your heart. <3

[2] I really dont like what is happening to the money i've saved for mannings, it's getting smaller and smaller... and its starting to make me panic. I mean, thats my future and I want it to be within reach, not years away. why does living have to be so bloody expensive!?

[3] Thinking about the transition from the bookstore to the daycare is... depressing. i wish i could do both and still have a life! =/ but the hours conflict anyways so...

[4] I go through relizations about life like all the time, and i swing between a few. Get on a high and then drop back to the other and have conflicting feelings. But right now the realization is good, and i think it's going to stay because this one feels like a God thing and those are always the ones that work. So i have a new plan, about waiting it out and just being real until than. I think it could work, i pray it will. God's timing has been better than mine in every situation. So i'm just going to wait... as long as i must.

[5] So this conversation the other day. It really helped. "I don't get why I get duped like this all the time. I dont think it's normal." "It isn't." "Than whats the deal why am I always being duped? Whats my problem?" "I think that the problem... isn't really a problem. It's actually really nice for everyone, except you. You have a huge capcacity to love, and you love these people in your life, you care about them, more than what they are expecting to be loved by anyone. You just love them more than they are used too, more than most people have the ability to love. So to you, it's like no one loves you at the same intensity that you love them. But really they probably love you more than they love most people in their life. You just cant see that, because you are able to love more than they are. You feel like you have more love in the friendship or relationship but it's probably equaly maxxed out on both of your love capacities. Also, some people dont know how to show it, whereas you make a point to be sure everyone knows how much you care. So it's not a problem. Not for anyone you love it isn't, we all feel blessed."